Friday, September 02, 2005

I hate corporate America
Current mood: pissed off

I feel everytime I post on here I am bitching and complaining... but I think that is the good thing about this website... I can sit and type out all my frustrations and then when I am done... I feel better and could careless if you or anyone else is reading this or if you even care about how mad or frustrated I am at the world. So for those that keep up with whats going on in my life you most likely know that I am stressed out to my whits end. I moved to Baltimore with a ton of hopes and dreams that all slowly are starting to fall apart. I feel like I have more close friends here than I did in Philly which is the one good thing about the move. I am unemployed and have been since March when my boss in Philadelphia STOLE a trip that he had promissed to me for over a year then he took his brain dead girlfriend with him instead of giving me the trip as promised. I saw him taking the trip a couple months before he actually did and even tried to seem like I could careless if Greg went on it and that he could go and take me... but NO he took his loser girlfriend who didnt do anything to earn the trip which I worked my ass off for. So when he left to go on the trip I quit. I hadnt planned on quitting my job so abrutly but sometimes I think that I was not going to work for someone that is so selfish that they would do that to their own employees.. I thought it was bad when I would be doing the books and paying the bills and watching him use the work account to buy dinner every day, projection tvs for one of his many houses and while my paycheck would bounce and all my bills would fall behind. You would think that an employer would put the people that worked their asses off for them ahead of themselves sometimes... but of course not. I was always put on the back burner and given broken promises. Fuck Him. I hope his business catches on fire or that he just runs it into the ground like he was doing when I left. So I had a couple job interviews over the past week with the same company. I have not been to a real job interview in over 4 or 5 years. And maybe I am not the most prepared person... but I was pretty confident that I got the job after the past 2 interviews... the people were shaking their heads and telling me how impressed with my work they were. I worked abuot 10 hours for the past couple days on getting a portfolio cd made so they would have something to remember me by. So I have been checking my email to find out if I got the job and today a letter was in my inbox that stated... That they were really impressed with my skills and program knowledge but didnt feel I had enough television graphics experience... how different can it be from web to television.. all I would be doing all day is making graphics for the news... you know those little boxes in the corner... and graphics to put into flat screen tvs... it was like my dream job for doing graphics... I talked with the Editor and even he seemed to think I would fit right in and that alot of my stuff looked like stuff they were looking for but... for some reason I guess some other asshole that went in for the interview had worked doing television graphics and got the job... who knows if he was so good then why isnt he working at the place he use to work making graphics... who knows.. I am bitter. I am mad, angry and poor... I needed that job more than anything. I am poor, jobless, and have no income at all. I have not had income for almost 6 months other than a couple hundred bucks a month here and there. I dont know how I can afford to buy a pack of smokes or a cup of coffee. I think I am just going to quit smoking, quit drinking caffeen and sit and pan handle on the side of the road with a silly sign that says please help... god bless! I think those guys make more money in a week than I have made in 6 months. So fuck all you people with jobs... money to waste on things like cigarettes, beer, scooter parts... mechanics to fix your broken cars... and fuck all you SUV driving assholes who can afford to spend $60-100 to fill up your fucking gas tank in your low gas mileage guzzeling road hog vehicles. Go buy a hybrid, a scooter, a motorcycle. Maybe take the fucking train to work. I hate you!