Tuesday, September 07, 2005

coffee addiction
Current mood: bored

I think I drink way too much coffee for my own good. For the days that I do not get out of bed and go purchase a 20 oz cup of coffee and fill it full of hazelnut creamer at 7:30am I seem to not be able to function for the day. Like today I woke up at 7:00 did not go get my coffee... and pretty much fell back asleep waking up every hour realizing I cannot function... I slept till about 12:30 today. I think it has something to do with being a little depressed for the simple fact that I really have no reason to wake up, nothing to do. When I finally woke up and decided to get my ass moving... I got my scooter out and rode around for about 30 minutes until I landed at the coffee shop to get a cold iced coffee to wake my lazy ass up.

I wrote one of the longest emails to someone today that I have not spoken to in months. I really just wish they would write me back. I think that out of all people in life that I want to talk to it is them... I want them to know what I am up to.. I send random emails with one or 2 lines hoping for a reply but today I wrote a huge letter it might take 20 minutes to read... maybe less... I just hope they write back... even if it is to tell me not to write to them anymore. I just want to know that they are alive and well. Maybe I want them to feel bad for me or at least feel like they care. Who knows.. I dont.

Today seems like I have alot to do in a little while... there are 2 meetings at the same time that I am suppose to attend... there is hanging out at my friends house helping them... that is more what I want to do but should most likely go to one of the meetings... I dont know I am so indicisive... however you spell it.. if anyone knows me... they should know I am a horrible speller and dont really care that I cannot spell well.

Well I need to get some work done... so back to work for me.